...not looking for sympathy, just bitching.

It seems the RA (rheumatoid arthritis) is starting to do some damage. I am quickly losing the ability to bend my left thumb, grasping something with that hand causes an immense amount of pain. That thumb is also becoming frozen, unable to bend to it's fullest extent and if I bend it in an upward motion it becomes locked into that position. I guess today I will have to get my doctor to order me an x-ray of my left hand, one to make sure it is the RA and two to see how bad it truly is now. Yesterday I was in bed getting some rest and trying to avoid some of my pain, I woke myself up rather quickly when my thumb was caught under two pillows. I rolled over and my thumb did not, you can imagine the rest from that point and yes it fucking hurt a lot.

If I let myself sit and think about this issue I get very upset, so I try not to dwell on the issue, hence this post to get it out of my head for a while. There is a possibility that the RA can do enough damage to my hands to either keep me from using a camera or make it very difficult to do so, something that has already started or I would not have been looking for a bigger camera body. I of course would find a way to use a camera in the studio, I would just have to give up on the live performance shoots.

In about another hour I can take my mound of morning pills and get some sleep and maybe stop bitching

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