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Six years and it comes down....

Journal Entry: Mon May 17, 2010, 9:51 AM a single day

Getting ready to go meet Amber at the storage unit, nervous as hell, shaking and seriously nauseous. I should be furious, not scared, she has been fucking one of my friends (former) for months. Just want to get this over with so I can get her OUT of my life, maybe that is what is scaring me. She has been my life for six years and today represents the true end, along with me being alone.  Not that she has been a real part of my life for the last 6 months, she shut me out and pushed me away, I thought it was about school and not about her fucking someone else. Thought it would all be over when school was done and we could get back to normal. Be back to being the couple that people would walk up to us and say something about how nice it is to see two people so in love with each other.

Going to get ready to do this and then trying to keep my sanity when it is over. My head is spinning, wondering how I am going to get through today.

I still want to wake up from this nightmare, I so want this to be a bad dream.

Tá grá i mo chroí go deo
The love in my heart is forever

  • Mood: Agony
Skin by duhcoolies (modified by krash)
nebulaborn Featured By Owner May 17, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I know you don't know me, but I've had you on my devwatch for years and could always tell she was your muse. I know that shaky/scared feeling all too well. I just wanted to say hang in there. Whenever I have been dumped, (and it's happened twice - once was similar to your situation) it never ends well for them.
krash Featured By Owner May 19, 2010  Professional Photographer
I know and that is actually one of the things that is killing me, knowing this path is not the right one for her and not saying I am, just this is going to be a bad situation that can prove to be very painful for her. No matter how pissed I am, I do NOT want to see that.

and Thank You for the support.
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