....to a single day
Getting ready to go meet Amber at the storage unit, nervous as hell, shaking and seriously nauseous. I should be furious, not scared, she has been fucking one of my friends (former) for months. Just want to get this over with so I can get her OUT of my life, maybe that is what is scaring me. She has been my life for six years and today represents the true end, along with me being alone. Not that she has been a real part of my life for the last 6 months, she shut me out and pushed me away, I thought it was about school and not about her fucking someone else. Thought it would all be over when school was done and we could get back to normal. Be back to being the couple that people would walk up to us and say something about how nice it is to see two people so in love with each other.
Going to get ready to do this and then trying to keep my sanity when it is over. My head is spinning, wondering how I am going to get through today.
I still want to wake up from this nightmare, I so want this to be a bad dream.
Tá grá i mo chroí go deo
The love in my heart is forever