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Journal Entry: Mon Mar 23, 2009, 2:10 AM
...not looking for sympathy, just bitching.

It seems the RA (rheumatoid arthritis) is starting to do some damage. I am quickly losing the ability to bend my left thumb, grasping something with that hand causes an immense amount of pain. That thumb is also becoming frozen, unable to bend to it's fullest extent and if I bend it in an upward motion it becomes locked into that position. I guess today I will have to get my doctor to order me an x-ray of my left hand, one to make sure it is the RA and two to see how bad it truly is now. Yesterday I was in bed getting some rest and trying to avoid some of my pain, I woke myself up rather quickly when my thumb was caught under two pillows. I rolled over and my thumb did not, you can imagine the rest from that point and yes it fucking hurt a lot.

If I let myself sit and think about this issue I get very upset, so I try not to dwell on the issue, hence this post to get it out of my head for a while. There is a possibility that the RA can do enough damage to my hands to either keep me from using a camera or make it very difficult to do so, something that has already started or I would not have been looking for a bigger camera body. I of course would find a way to use a camera in the studio, I would just have to give up on the live performance shoots.

In about another hour I can take my mound of morning pills and get some sleep and maybe stop bitching :)











Tá grá i mo chroí go deo
The love in my heart is forever


  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: voices snoring in my head
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CretePhoto Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2009
Is there a way to hook the camera up to a computer to mess with the manual settings? And then use a tripod handle to move it up, down, etc?
You definitely can't stop shooting! lol
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krash Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2009  Professional Photographer
Oh yeah there is tons of ways to stay shooting in the studio, I would even try to do so if I went blind :)

thanks
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arien Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2009
Argh, that really sucks, John. I am very sorry to hear. Degenerative diseases are terrifying, because you *know* what's going to happen when they start. I saw Dave's grannie with RA, she used to be a concert-level piano player, so you can imagine the effect it had on her. Dave's mum is now developing it too, and considering she's a much much sturdy lady than grannie, we're hoping for good treatments, as if some joints get stiff it will be a lot more difficult to help her out.

At least it's starting, but you might find that sometime soon-ish we might be able to find something that helps deal with it. I hope this is the case: for you, for Dave's mum, and for Dave, because I'd rather not find out if there are some genetics inherent into it, nor would I like to see him having to see his mum going through that.

*hugs* let's pray some treatment comes soon.
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krash Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2009  Professional Photographer
Today was my first time doing a full shoot since it started on my left thumb. I am going to have to find some kind of glove to help me with grip on that hand while shooting and maybe give it a bit of support, making it harder for me to bend the thumb. I would only want to do that in order to cut down on me making it hurt more, like I did tonight :). I went to lower my soft box and grabbed the light stand with my right hand then loosened the screw with my left. It reminded me really fast not to do that anymore during the shoot.

I am fine as long as it does not ruin my right hand, but yeah there would be no piano playing even now, at least not with that thumb. Moving it will help keep it from freezing into position, even though that hurts like a mother fucker, but I am trying.

I hope some of the changes being made here with stem cells gets a lot of things going cure or treatment wise. I know it's not a cure all, but it is a step in the right direction, no matter what the 'church' thinks.

....and as always Thank You :hug:
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my-own-nightmare Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2009
But Ripley is doing his best to try and fix it!
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krash Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2009  Professional Photographer
Yes he is, poor guy has been going nuts with me lately.
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RockstarVanity Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2009
Aww, that sucks :hug: I don't know if this would be any use to you or if you've already thought of it (you probably have) but would a monopod make shooting at concerts any easier? Because it rests on the ground, your hands only need to control the direction and function of the camera without needing to hold it's weight as well.
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krash Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2009  Professional Photographer
When RA causes deformity to the joint it locks it into place, meaning it will never bend again. If that happens I wont be able to do much other than push a button, that can be done easily in a studio environment, but not from the edge of a mosh pit :).
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RockstarVanity Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2009
Shit, that sucks. I really hope it doesn't get that bad, or at least that progress of the condition can be held at bay for as long as possible :hug:
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krash Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2009  Professional Photographer
thanks :hug:
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